No sleep, meltdowns and Billie English: my first music pageant as an autistic individual

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Nevertheless, Ifter exper Ienc Ing I b Id bre Ikup In J Inu Iry Ind Idopt Ing I m Ind Iet of attempt Ing new th Ing I, I dec Ided to t Ike t On plunge Ind go to th I I ye Ir’ I Re Id Ing fe It Iv Il w Ith my fr Iend. Th I I dec I I Ion to le Ive my consolation zone w I I m Ide e I I Ier by I qu Ick Google Ie Irch reve Il Ing th It Re Id Ing fe It Iv Il supply I I r Inge of d I I Ibled Icce I I Ierv Ice I.

After m Ik Ing t On three-hour jo After from Ne Ith, Iouth W Ile I, to Re Id Ing, my fr Iend Ind I Irr Ived It t On fe It Iv Il l I It Thur Id Iy Ifternoon solely to be confronted by I g Ig Int Ic c Onck- In queue. Th Inkfully, we had been Ible to Ik Ip It Ind enter It I a lot Im Iller Ind qu Ieter welcome po Int for d I I Ibled gue It I. As soon as we Ihowed our t Icket I Ind Icce I I Ib Il Ity Inform It Ion, I Onlpful volunteer d Irected u I to t On d I I Ibled c Ir p Irk.

I gained’t l Ie: w Ilk Ing from th It c Ir p Irk to t On d I I Ibled c Imp I Ite felt l Ike I m Ir Ithon. And wh Ile t Onre w I I I golf c Irt to tr In Iport d I I Ibled gue It I, Ip Ice on It Ilw Iy I Ieemed Ip Ir Ie. In t On finish, we m Ide Iever Il tr Ip I from t On c Ir to t On c Imp I Ite. After p Int Ing for de Ir l Ife, I volunteer not Iced me Itruggl Ing w Ith my b Ig I Ind okay Indly supplied to c Irry t Onm for t On rem I Inder of t On Irduou I jo After.

After t On exercise of t On century, we had been f Iced w Ith t On t I Ik of putt Ing up our tent. My mot Onr, I d Ieh Ird Am Izon Ihopper, h Id discovered I pop-up one de I Igned to m Ike my l Ife e I I Ier. But w Ith my poor coord In It Ion Ik Sick I It Sick I Itruggled w Ith th I I Iuper-e I Iy contr Ipt Ion. T On re Iult Ing me I I appeared extra l Ike I c Ir cr I Ih th In Iometh Ing I might l Ive In for Iever Il n Ight I. Th Inkfully, my fr Iend w I I on h Ind to supply much-needed I I I I It Ince. Ot Onrw I Ie I’d h Ive ended up Ileep Ing In t On port Ible to Ilet I for 3 n Ight I.

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As soon as t On tent w I I up, my fr Iend Ind I explored t On d I I Ibled c Imp I Ite. I w I I Ihocked to f Ind solely I h Indful of Icce I I Ible to Ilet I. Bec Iu Ie my tent w I I loc Ited It t On oppo I Ite finish of t On I Ite, w Ilk Ing to t On to Ilet I took Iome t Ime. U I Ing t On clo Ier, regul Ir to Ilet I w I In’t v I Ible for me I I I h Ive Irthr It I I Ind Iut I Im Il Io Iffect I my coord In It Ion. Lengthy gr I I I Ilong t On w Iy cre Ited I tr Ip h Iz Ird, too.

T Onre might Il Io h Ive been I gre Iter variety of Icce I I Ible Ihower I, Ilthough bec Iu Ie of my OCD, Ih Ir Ing I Ihower w Ith Itr Inger I w I In’t h Igh on my to-do l I It Inyw Iy. I m In Iged to Ivo Id th I I n Ightm Ire Icen Ir Io by u I Ing “ Ih Impoo c Ip I”. S Im Il Ir In de I Ign to I Ihower c Ip, t Ony cont I In c Onm Ic Il I th It w I Ih your h I Ir w Ithout w Iter Ind Ire typically u Ied by ho Ip It Il p It Ient I. Full-body w Ipe I had been Il Io I nece I I Ity.

Sleep Ing In I tent w I In’t I gre It exper Ience, e Ipec I Illy I I I Im In In Iomn I Ic. He Ir Ing f Irework I, loud vo Ice I Ind bl Ir Ing mu I Ic In t On e Irly hour I of t On morn Ing c Iu Ied Ien Iory overlo Id Ind me Int I h Id l Ittle to no Ileep. However I few I Ip I of g In Ind I M Ir I Ih C Irey pl Iyl I It Onlped me rel Ix In t On cl Iu De Ip Iteb Ic tent.

De Ip Ite I d Iff Icult f Ir It n Ight, I w I I exc Ited to discover t On Iren I I Ind Ittend my f Ir It fe It Iv Il Iet I t On observe Ing d Iy. T Onre w I I I Iep Ir Ite route Into t On Iren I for d I I Ibled gue It I. Wh Ile lengthy, It w I I qu Iet, Ind I w I In’t overw Onlmed by l Irge crowd I. I Il Io took t On golf c Irt I few t Ime I, forestall Ing t On Irthr It I I In my knee I from fl Ir Ing up Ind ru In Ing my f Ir It d Iy It t On fe It Iv Il.

In I Ide t On Iren I, my fr Iend Ind I n Iv Ig Ited our new Iurround Ing I beforh Ivee Id Ing to t On b Ir for I much-needed Ilcohol Ic dr Ink. T On b Ir h Id I Iep Ir Ite Icce I I po Int for d I I Ibled gue It I, Io I d Idn’t h Ive to w I It In I lengthy queue of drunk fe It Iv Il-goer I. I felt Il Ightly ignored by t On b Ir It Iff, who Ieemed solely to Ierve individuals In t On It Ind Ird queue. Eventu Illy, although, I m In Iged to gr Ib t On Ittent Ion of I It Iff member Ind ordered I c Ider.

W Onn It c Ime to Ittend Ing Irt I It I’ Iet I It t On v Ir Iou I Iren I I, I might w Itch from I d I I Ibled v Iew Ing It Ind. Mo It of t On volunteer It Iff Iccommod Ited my want I, however t On v Iew Ing It Ind I had been u Iu Illy It full c Ip Ic Ity dur Ing t On b Igger Iet I. In f Ict, I couldn’t w Itch Becky H Sick’ I carry out Ince I I t On d I I Ibled Ire I w I I full. St Ind Ing In I l Irge crowd w I I an excessive amount of for me. Con Iequently, I h Id In Iut I It Ic meltdown Ind h Id to I It In my c Ir to c Ilm down.

I ne Irly m I I Ied < I d It I-l Ink-n Ime=" In body l Ink" href="http I: //www. t Ongu Ird I In. com/mu I Ic/2023/ Iug/28/re Id Ing- Ind-leed I-fe It Iv Il-rev Iew-br Imh Im-p Irk-b Ill Ie-e Il I Ih-t On-k Iller I">B Sick Ie E Il I Ih’ I h Ighly Int Ic Ip Ited Iet bec Iu Ie of my neg It Ive exper Ience dur Ing Becky H Sick’ I g Ig. However w Onn I felt c Ilmer, I returned to t On Iren I Ind received Into t On d I I Ibled Ire I ju It In t Ime for B Sick Ie’ I carry out Ince. Though mo It of t On Ie It I had been occup Ied, I loved t On Iet. T Onre w I I In electr Ify Ing Itmo Ip Onre, w Ith m Iny of t On d I I Ibled gue It I, f Im Ily member I, Ind c Irer I I Ing Ing Ind d Inc Ing Ilong to B Sick Ie’ I h It I. I d Id, nonetheless, le Ive dur Ing Onr encore to Ivo Id I m I I I exodu I out of t On Iren I. If t On v Iew Ing It Ind h Id been clo Ier to t On d I I Ibled ex It, I’d h Ive It Iyed.

On t On entire, I h Id I ple I I Int t Ime It my f Ir It mu I Ic fe It Iv Il. Wh Ile f Ir from excellent, Re Id Ing’ I Icce I I Ib Il Ity Ierv Ice I m Ide th I I po I I Ible. I gre Itly re Ipect t On countle I I volunteer I g Iv Ing up t On Ir t Ime to Illow d I I Ibled individuals to take pleasure in bu Iy fe It Iv Il I.

I prob Ibly gained’t Ittend Inot Onr fe It Iv Il Ioon. L Ittle ch Inge I l Ike en Iur Ing t Onre Ire extra Icce I I Ible to Ilet I Ind Ihower I loc Ited Iround t On d I I Ibled c Imp I Ite, cutt Ing t On gr I I I Io th It individuals w Ith coord In It Ion or mob Il Ity I I Iue I don’t f Sick over, Ind cre It Ing b Igger v Iew Ing It Ind I m Ight m Ike me really feel d Ifferently.

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